I used to think my value was connected to the work I did
I was super nervous Monday morning before I was scheduled to release the video about my departure from Blossom. So nervous so that I wasn’t going to release it.
48 hours later, I have complete peace with my decision to share the announcement with you via video. I am also grateful for your support and your continued belief in me and my journey.
But I’m telling you, I was super scared to leave Blossom. I genuinely thought I was going to lose my value as a human being. I felt like I was going to lose value to the many people I met in the last two years. I consistently asked myself, “Who am I? Who am I going to become? How am I going to introduce myself?”
After weeks of thinking these things, I realized, not only do I need to change my thought pattern, but I need to use the tools I have to create the life I want. I need to find my intrinsic value. I got this! So I got off social media and started to do the work.
What do I like to do?
What do I want to try?
Who do I want to spend time with?
How do I want to spend my time?
What do I want to create?
What’s interesting is, I thought I knew the answers to all these questions.
But I am happy to tell you today, that I have found my value. I know what I like and I know what I want. I am also 100% confident that I can do any and everything I want to do. My peers don’t define me. My parents don’t define me. My mentors don’t define me. My girlfriend doesn’t define me. I define me. I get to create my own narrative.
Now, I do understand that the decisions I make for me will affect others but I am my priority. I do what’s best for me. My feelings come first.
There is nothing external that can validate who I am and there is no human being that can determine my destiny.
At this point, my ONLY goal is to show myself what freedom looks and feels like.
This process wasn’t giltzy.
I dealt with guilt.
I dealt with shame. I dealt with anger.
I “lost” friends.
But now, I am at peace and I am excited for what’s to come.
I just shot some videos that I’ll start sharing next week and I am preparing to shoot some more. Being in front of the camera is one of my true loves.
Before I go, let me know: Is there something you’ve been afraid to let go of because how closely you are connected to? Are you afraid to let go because you don’t know who you are without it?
Talk to me!
Live in bloom,